If I would I could. so I hope I can.

Saw these Jeffrey Campbell shoes while walking through Nordstrom. I thought they were pretty awesome.

que pasa babycakes?

One year is all I have left and pretty much 2 classes left and I can officially receive that diploma. But this is when the fear instills itself in my body. I doubt I'm well prepared for the journey ahead and compared to everyone else who is in my class and I don't have the experience they do. I fear that my anti-social mannerisms have gotten the best of me. I found internships 2 weeks ago, plenty of them. But I can't get myself to fill them out, fearing that I don't have the social skills to survive a day in them. 22 years old and I fear picking up the phone??? it's a scary world out there for me. I'm not sure I know what I want and if I do know what I want, do I know how to get there? For the past month I pretty much spent the majority of time in bed cause of the surgery and all I could really do was analyze my situation. I came up with the conclusion that I may have no motivation to do something. Yes there are plenty of things that I like to do and I love researching anything and everything but I cant get myself to focus on one. These past 2 years I've learned a lot about the media and the way society is affected by it and I love reading about it but what do I want to do with it. I've come up with plenty of ideas I tried to start a tech podcast and then doing some stuff for the newspaper but where has it all gone? at this point I'm back where I was a year ago. Now I think what if I would have just sticked with FIDM, I may have had at least some sort of job? But you can't go back unfortunately, just forward.

It may be time to call that life coach...

Agur Bakersfield

Oh bakersfield,
thank you for allowing my to stay in one of your many wonderful castles. Though it seems that some of your residents may have a tanning bed addiction, they were pretty welcoming. Thank you for stuffing me with lots of lamb and sausage it was all very delicious. You sure know how to throw a good Basque festival though I'm sad there was no sheep to herd. Here are some pictures from this weekend trip to Bakersfield/The Castle.






Hope to see you next year!

xoxo,
Gossip Girl (aka Elisa)

damn you kaiser!

I'm pretty sure I have asthma but for some reason I don't think my doctor believes me. I went to another doctor and even she thought I had asthma. I can't even walk up the stairs to my apartment without feeling like i'm going to drop dead. DAMN YOU KAISER!

Andale at SFO

I finally made it to the Andale in SFO and it wasn't all I thought it would be. First of all my poor little Andale is all the way in the back of the small food court. It sits there with such a sad face and it's sort of disappointing compared to their other locations that always seem to be so inviting and festive. There was no one there, it was just my boyfriend and I sitting in a corner looking like burrito thieves. The supremo burrito was good but not as great as the Palo Alto location (RIP) or the original Los Gatos restaurant, but it did fill the spot I have for Andale in my heart.

Semi-trucks and hit and runs

I felt so horrible today when Alex came to my DMP class. He confirmed what I knew. I had no internships, a horrible resume and was pretty much behind on the whole process. I left the class feeling like I had gotten hit by a car and then run over by a semi-truck. I held back the tears that were anxiously awaiting to leave my eyes and felt so damn embarrassed. But all of this will be reversed and channeled into making my video podcast into a super greatness that can withstand anything natural disaster. please señor jesus christ superstar, let my video podcast be great and let me find an internship.

Mi casa es su casa

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Here's a google map that outlines some of the places that I've taken pictures for my Digital Media Production and places that have inspired me to write a blog. Through this map, you will be able to learn about the places that I enjoy visiting.